kinda bored, at my sisters house right now. everyone's sleep & i'm in the mood to blog. so. . . i really dont know where to begin but i guess i could start with how i'm feeling right now. being lonely slash single sucks ass. for now anyways. it alwaaaays starts out like this. it fucking urks me. & i get on some fuckeveryniggaisee type shit. its like i know i dont wanna be in a relationship. but at the same time i fucking crave that feeling. i guess feeling like youre genuinely wanted by someone. & i know just about everyone can relate in some kinda way.
but my whole thing with relationships, see. i feel as if theyre all a waste of time. at this point in my life anyways. holdon let me finish lol. all the shit really does is prepare you for the person youre gonna spend the rest of your life with, right? & i know damn well i'm not ready to "settle down" yet. i got sooo much more living & soul searching to do before i give my all to just one guy. i mean, ive ran across a few potential hopefuls. not really a few - more like one. & i could def see myself being with him & only him. but my priorities are majorly fucked right about now. the last thing on my mind is marrying some sucka. & like people should know whether or not the person theyre with. . . is 'hubby' or 'wifey' material. it may take a while but at some point you know. & i see it like this, there's either one of two things going on if otherwise. one, youre just looking for someone to kick it with, shoot the shit with, or just be laid up with. thats cool & all but its still a waste of time. especially when feelings get involved. waste of time for whoever youre with. by all means though if thats what you need to cope. . . do you. or two; youre 100% settling w/ that person. if youre not planning on being with someone forever, etc then yeah i feel as if youre settling. which is def a character flaw w/ some people. they feel as if they HAVE to be with someone. which is why most people go back to their ex. its kinda like a comfort zone. they know at some point that person wanted them. & hopefully still does.
to be honest though i'm starting to hate labels. so over that shit. i wanna be able to just. . . kick it with a guy i'm feeling. no titles, no expectations, nothing. only problem is, i'm a jealous & possessive ass chick. & that causes problems. so its hard for me to be completely platonic with someone. i fall for people & for all the wrong reasons. like i said my priorities are fucked. i'm feeling this way one day then that way the next.
the only thing on my mind right now is money. i just know i need a goddamn job. this one place emailed me. but i wont get too excited just yet lmao. cross your fingers for me though. cus a bitch has been broke for too long.
Not too much you shouldn't already know about me. I got an ill attitude problem. Yeah, GOT. But who doesn't these days. I like using big words, go figure. I never attended college. Still deciding if the whole campus life is for me. Part-time worker with full-time spending habits. I like to show off. Heh. I'm abrasive & broad, even though I can be super shy. But that's because I'm not a social bitch. My sense of humor is somewhat repulsive, at times vuglar. Likely to hurt your feelings. 25% of the time it's unintentional, though. Oh yeah my name is Teena. Single? Mhm.
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nice song btw, but youre def good without a man. being in a relationship sometimes has a way of getting shit complicated that has nothing to do with the relationship. it's hard being with someone and having to cater to two peoples needs instead of one. just take your time, when the moment is right itll come and everything will be straight. that lonely feeling comes and goes
your so right about the going back to the ex thing. i was that type before & it was the biggest mistake i could have done, but it did get me to think how i think now, fuck all that loneliness shit lol im on my grind worried about gettin money, myself & thats that. niggas come & go like seasons lol
i know exactly what you mean. that shit can be the worst. have u feeling crazy depressed & worthless especially when its all said & done. and like i said i really dont need that right now. i'm just being a little pussy lmao. wanting some attention. =/ & possibly needing someone to take my mind off shit. when there's other things that can do just that. blah. thanks for reading though.<3
u write well
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Interesting blog
I know what you mean
thank you. ;]
this blog has a lot of truth to it
When it's all said and done though..your head is in the right place, just give it some time.
relationships happen everyday. You just gotta find your right mixture of romance & reality.
Keep ya head up! I always tried to force the "relationship" thing and that shit NEVER works! LOL
just get on ya grind and let the chips fall into place.
def appreciate the advice guys. & youre 100% correct hi-jynx.
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